merc 🦋

i feel like gollum when he talks to himself

no no. youre better than this
its ok

oh god oh god aaaaaaa

ughhhh this sometimes happens when high but i can usually ignore it it just doesnt feel good to go thru

oooo oh nooo i domt wanna get paranoidddd

omg im getting a lot of follow backs from people i think are cool yippee<3

Blue&Pink Care bear kidcore bunny!

Bunny💜💎
#art #kidcore #furry #furryart #carebears #chibi

babygirl why are you so sad?

my bad i got dramatic earlier

im probably just some antisocial freak everyone thinks is weird and doesnt want to get close to

i wish it was not this hard to do things and talk to people

. sad of me

feeling excited about mealprep. bought these bentgo containers like 10 for $13. prepped them all. im hoping this helps both fern and i with eating more consistently and intentionally

i think i want to change my meds bc its getting ridiculous

im not kidding im in a wonderful little spot where physical touch makes me retch and its completely out of my control. i get incredibly irritated by it. i only used to be like this when i was a child

physical touch sounds so nice in theory i wish i could have it

anyone know what to do about sex drive on ssris bc its completely gone rn. like im kinda repulsed by it. i havent been this way in a long time and its a bit annoying

ok. phew. ok. i am takin a smaller break from bsky bc of news

this country sucks. i hate this place evil

i am not super torn up in that if i get my passport it might have to have an F on it bc its not as dangerous for me than a trans woman but . i would like an X. and. i cant do that now. i missed the window. i didnt have the money

the world is big and scary and it is hard to learn about things that i cannot control on my own i can try to do my best to help others but the full situation i am not god but i don't want to spiral about it and it's coming out as frustration and bitchiness

bedtime sounds good right about now

the answer is i shouldn't and i won't but it certainly is tiring

how do i just start accepting the scraps i receive

sometimes i think ignorance and carelessness would be more blissful

thank u <3 i do think ultimately its a good thing im finally sad about moving. i used to be so excited to move out and i think thats more sad yknow?

i do want to move still ultimately but thinking about it makes me sad. I've never recalled being this sad about moving before. except maybe when i was little

into a new school 3) i started putting some roots here with friendships and important orgs and i am going to be really sad to uproot it 4) i am scared about not having enough sunlight it genuinely affects me mood in a bad bad way 5) money 6) i found my first ever home here

i know the cule has plans to move soon but im a bit sad about it bc 1) im so goddamn tired of moving all the time
2) i genuinely love my job and having to move does mean i have to start over it doesnt guarantee ill get to work at elementary again and even then im set back trying to integrate myself

i would like to experiment more with ideas that I have. rn its just skill building back up to where i used to be. little doodles every day are helping and its only been a short while

in a day im gonna drop the nsfw doodles from my damn notes app and its gonna blow up