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OUTTA MY WAY!!!!!!!

Balmung in FFXIV and Moon Guard on WoW have the same reputation, and they're wrong for the same reasons. I've now spent time on both of these servers and have found that as long as you don't go to the one designated horny area, the people are the friendliest and coolest in their respective game.

I managed to sit and turn on the computer. I still feel guilty about getting on it, though…

I’m home from the hospital and crying again already

On the upside, being sick and having doctors come in every couple min were a decent distraction.

But I’m already starting to feel guilty again…

Guess who was in the hospital most of yesterday and today, and wound up in the ICU, because he was too depressed to eat or drink?

I can’t even manage to get myself to get up and go to bed

That dog was better than I deserved.

Part of me wants to do my normal bedtime routine and get on my laptop for a while but it doesn’t feel right.

It doesn’t feel right to try to do something I enjoy. It doesn’t feel right to do “normal.”

I haven’t even cleaned the tears off of my glasses all day because it feels like erasing her somehow.

All of that means more to me than you know to read, but at the same time, I’m struggling to accept it. To let myself accept any kind of comfort.

I just keep thinking about things I could’ve done. Should’ve done.

I’m trying not to make it anyone else’s problem and not to be complaining and struggling so publicly but it just hurts. And I don’t know what else I can do.

I know I’m repeating myself, but I just feel so weak and empty and heavy. Everything feels wrong.

It still doesn’t feel entirely real, somehow? Idk how to word anything.

There’s so much going through my head, so many thoughts and feelings that I can’t sort them. I cant even figure out how to put them into words

I don’t know who I have to lean on other than online friends.

She was always what I leaned on. My comfort when I was struggling.

I keep thinking I hear her. I keep seeing little things that remind me of her.

I just feel lost and empty. I don’t know what to do. Everything feels wrong.

I don’t know. I’ve been trying to talk to some of my other friends about it but I feel guilty bothering them about it. I feel like I’m dragging them down with me.

I don’t even know if I feel sad anymore.

I just feel kinda empty.

Everything feels wrong.

Sorry I’m being so depressing.

I just don’t know what to do. Or who to talk to. Or much of anything right now

Part of me wants to try to get on the computer like I normally would but it feels wrong.

I feel wrong

I just keep thinking about all the things that there’ll never be again

I feel bad even laying down to cry.

Less than an hour ago I was laying like this and she was in my arms. Now I won’t have that again.

It feels cold without her

She’s gone.

It doesn’t feel right getting back in the car without her.