madeleine🌿

GIRL SAME OMG

avoidant’s love their physical touch😭 it’s much easier than talking for yall but i get it, i NEED physical touch too. but again, talking abt this is the best route and then making accommodations WHILE both parties are making the work to heal. and i get that last part, it’s extra hard right now :(

don’t feel like a clown bc of your attachment style. you’re aware of it and that is the biggest and hardest step to take. just verbalize what you are able to and give yourself the space you need, while also taking your partner into consideration. and always remember healing isn’t linear🫂

you’re not just gonna magically become emotionally available during this shit until you are in a better space mentally and physically. and if this is a long term situation then the only way to truly heal your attachment style is some form of therapy, which ever works best for you

no glue no borax😭😭😭 but my advice is to be transparent with your partner abt this and that’ll 1. give them perspective on your situation and hopefully give you grace and understanding that you need some space 2. will take the weight off your shoulders of this expectation you are putting on yourself

i think flatbush avenue would be a great song title

yall im joining a muay thai gym and im so fucking excited and mak and i are going to new york twice this month😝 anyways here’s some more random pics as of late, i made gluten free blueberry muffin cake and i may have bought a pack of cigs🥴🙄🫢 at least i called it beforehand

NOT ANYMORE GODDDDD SHOULD I JUMP

i just printed out my thoughts/therapy note that i had written in for 5 years and it is literally 23 pages long… like small font, not double spaced it’s crazy, i wanted to be able to read it all out in front of me on paper and it’s insane😀 watching your own mental health journey is quite the show

okay last post abt this night, but i used to be a heavy weed smoker and now i smoke green tea cigs whenever i feel the need but ive never had an actual cig (bc ik i wouldn’t be able to stop) so here’s my first time and again the ending is killing me😭 the fearful ‘OH😀 i like this too much’

me twice a year on this app

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chely wright and taylor swift at the beginning of chely’s doc Wish Me Away

Wow, she came out!
I said, "You're living my drеam"

the eclipse 😍

Blood moon lit

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IM JUST A GIRL!

holy why can’t i stop thinking abt getting railed 💀

*taps sign more aggressively*

pupils are dilated💀

okay last post abt this night, but i used to be a heavy weed smoker and now i smoke green tea cigs whenever i feel the need but ive never had an actual cig (bc ik i wouldn’t be able to stop) so here’s my first time and again the ending is killing me😭 the fearful ‘OH😀 i like this too much’

bri surprised us w FOUR pizzas last night and this was my reaction😭 i instantly walked up to the wall to hold it up and opened the garlic butter, my friend took these on .5 and i can’t stop laughing

turns out i’m really good at pool and apparently i have a very high tolerance to tequila i guess from my philly days

that’s one big reason why i’m not doing it, it was absolutely horrendous when i grew my hair out😭 i looked so bad i hated it

yeah i’ve thought long and hard abt getting one but idk if i like them enough. i dress pretty masc so its a decent balance with the long hair

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this new pic reminded me of this old one from 2021 and i had to do a side by side bc it’s tripping me out, i wish i could wake up everyday and pick new hair and it grows in two seconds like sims💀 bc this is UNFAIR LIKE HELLO

touch ups pt 3 (THREEEE) i do noT recommend hand tattoos even though they look so cool, the ink doesn’t stick there for some reason and THIS SHIT HURTS🥴 i’ll post when he’s done tho

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