FilthChapel

I still miss you...

I miss you on Twitter...hope you're doing well...

Weighed in at 384 this morning, that's a total of 45lbs down...one month to go to see what my final weight loss for the year is...

I never really set any weight loss goals when I started this job 11 months ago, but today I hit the 41lb mark of weight loss...and I kind of hope I lose another 40 next year...

-Chicken thighs (roasted, pan seared, or made into pulled chicken for tacos)
- Meatloaf or meatballs (50/50 beef/sausage, seasoned and baked)
-Cabbage, Cauliflower, Broccoli, and Potatoes (seasoned and either roasted or steamed)
-Start cutting sugar like soda back out from daily consumption

This week's meal prep went very poorly...I tried new things, and came up with very mediocre results...I think the plan moving forward is to stick to basics...I need to treat meal prep like I would if I were still weightlifting, because it's cheaper and more predictable...

I was just teasing, I didn't know any of the details about why you'd missed the shows, just that you'd missed out on a few...sorry!

This sounds like copium from someone who's never seen Ghost live 🤭

Nah, I still feel like shit and haven't done a bunch of other things I'm supposed to do today...yet...I might force myself to do them later so I get some dopamine...

I was literally coming on here to brag that I'd gotten all of my meals prepped and laundry done...way to steal my thunder!...

I know...I hate it here during winter...it's the fucking worst...but, at least I got my groceries...

SAME! (except the closet part)...then again, I somehow lost all of Friday, and was too lazy to do anything yesterday after going to get groceries...

It was -1 yesterday morning when I went to go get groceries...with a wind chill of -16...my Xterra BARELY turned over enough to start...

I went out of my way to get yellow squash yesterday for my meal prep today...I take them out of their cling wrapped prison this morning only to find that they're already moldy...how?!?...

I'd you poisoned it, then you'd know...maybe next time...

My first concert ever was MM's Mechanical Animals tour, Halloween in Minneapolis 1998...show got cut short because he injured himself on the stilts for Kinderfeld...

I just listened to them for the first time in like 20 years today, because I added a couple songs to a playlist for a coworker in her early 20's who had no idea who most of the bands I listed were...

Has every man who has ever watched an INXS video and seen Michael Hutchence thought to themselves "You know, maybe I actually AM gay?"...it turns out I'm not, but goddamn he was fucking gorgeous...

There's a pale MJ joke there that I'm not going to make...but I could if I wanted to...

No, but the other day I had one so good that I assumed I'd turn around and just see a snake coiled in the bowl...

Follow up to this, a year later...They fired me on the 2nd day, because I wasn't physically able to stand at a CNC machine for 10hrs a day...I was hired to be a CNC Programmer and sit at a desk to write programs, NOT to stand at a machine to run parts...fuck that bait and switch bullshit...

I know in my bio it says "Carry on disappearing", and I know I heard that from somewhere and thought "Wow, that's so profound"...but now I have no clue where I heard it, or why I thought it was important enough to put in my bio...

This album and Black Harvest are both amazing...quickly becoming one of my favorite bands...

And I can't even smoke to lower my anxiety, because I have a drug test to take this week in order to get hired, so everything is just piling up and compounding right now...

For the first time in my life I truly understand imposter syndrome...the amount of stress I've felt since accepting a job offer that I know I've done before is so immense, because for some reason I feel like I don't deserve the job and that I somehow talked my way into it...

Holy forking shirtballs!

If there isn't a CHVRCHES x Sleep Token collab within my lifetime, then what the fuck was the point of staying alive by the end?

Funny that you work remotely via Zoom meetings, yet shit on people for needing mental health days away from their work environment...that's some true clown shit right there...

You know what makes my depression and anxiety better? Being able to freely take time away from my job without stigma attached to it if I need that time to get my head straight, rather than trying to push through it and doing low quality work and making my upcoming days just as bad.