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Idk how I'll get over the way western medicine treats women, but I figure my defenses will come down to:
🤍 Knowing my way around research literature
🤍 Having doctor and nurse friends
🤍 Fucking off and self-paying if that's what it takes to get quality care
Smh I looked up "ACOG" expecting to see "American College of Obstetricians" and Gynecologists and got suggestions for gun optics ("Trijicon Advanced Combat Optical Gunsight") instead.
That one was my own fault.
Look up images — no, videos — of how a tenaculum is used for an IUD insertion.
Usually without pain relief (or only ibuprofen)
It was in 2025 that American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists guidelines urged doctors to take IUD insertion pain seriously, with options for local anesthetics
Happy International Women's Day.
Never forget how often women are dismissed by doctors or told it's just nature to be sensitive and "complicated."
Meanwhile, men get prompt treatment for heart problems, erectile dysfunction, growing prostates, hormone imbalance, and more. Oh, and pain relief.
It's here! I compared the Sybian, Motorbunny Original, and Tremor ride-on vibrators — beyond "any of them could make me cry"
(Plus, audio track of me on the Motorbunny, if anyone's interested 👄 🫦 )
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Fun fact: any meal you get delivered could have been in a car with a couple getting handsy, e.g., one party getting fingered or rubbed off while food was in the back seat.
Of course that was always a possibility, but not one I considered til invited to play passenger princess during delivery hours
Missed Bad Bunny’s halftime show? Want to rewatch? (4x and counting for me). The NFL posted the whole performance on YouTube: on pace for 500k views in the first 30 minutes.
Even though a little snark slipped out on my end, I'm so happy he was attuned, he remembered, and it ended up being fun for both of us!
American daughter shows her immigrant dad something new to him!
We're on vacation.
He was about to just chill in the motel room for the rest of the evening...
...to which I rolled my eyes
...and he took that seriously.
He remembered that I previously suggested going to a nice bar to watch the Super Bowl and asked if I still wanted to do that
🙌✨ Happy to introduce my (foreign) dad to the entire concept of a Superbowl halftime show!
"We made it just in time!"
He asked, "For what?"
Once it started, he said, "This is incredible! No wonder so many people are watching it!"
He learned the word, "magarita" today, too
My current favorite thing is a grasshopper mouse taking down and eating a scorpion, then howling at the moon 🌕🦂🐁
Joking about small things giving me will to live is low-key a gratitude journal.
Today:
💟 r/gonewildaudio
💟 Possibly preparing to compete in USPSA?
💟 Jasmine & vanilla bourbon body cream
💟 A heating pad
💟 Stray cats and squirrels in the sunroom
💟 Dildology
💟 Prozac
r/gonewildaudio is currently about 10% of my will to live
Yeah there's a difference between crying bc something happened vs feeling like everything sucks and searching on Reddit for more signs people suck.
I took 5mg at the first sign of feeling like that, then 5 mg the next day, then 10 mg next. No more since BUT I'VE GOTTEN SO MUCH TIME AND PEACE BACK
Feeling viscerally disgusted by the recent news IS A RESPONSE I'D HOPE MOST HUMANS HAVE!!!
AND ALSO, if an antidepressant helps me through the day so I'm on my A-game for my friends who are ALREADY affected by this dystopia more than me, so be it! I need this med and my friends need me on it, too.
My therapist: How are you today?
Me: I opened IG and got GREAT NEWS — PALANTIR IS DOWN 13%!!!!!!! I'VE BEEN FEELING GREAT EVER SINCE I TOOK AN ANTIDEPRESSANT A FEW TIMES LAST WEEK even though other news has been objectively disgusting!!!
Totally!! I cling to her as an example bc she's as mainstream as an icon can be even though the haters would bash on her for being short with small boobs.
Almost like... There are many ways to be a sexually autonomous woman... And some comments shouldn't be taken seriously, even if they're loud...
It seems pretty common to get cold feet about cosmetic surgery — as it should be
Idk if I even want it anymore
I don't think I'm UGLY, or that I "NEED" it, but the past few months have done a number on my body image
In the meantime, I can tell myself it's okay to be built like Shakira
Called to postpone my boob job appointment
Receptionist: May I ask why you're rescheduling?
Me, in my head: My gun range membership doesn't expire for 7 months, and I want to use it up before committing to slicing my pecs
Me, on the phone: I have other obligations I'd like to take care of first
Omg there's a new lady working at the gun range
When the chatty guy asked, "How was shooting today?" she added, "Did you kill all the men?" 💀
For what it's worth, some readers on IG appreciate that I make them smile and laugh when the rest of the world feels like doom and gloom.
In my teens: wrecked my hair with bleach and added color to brassy orange-yellow
In my twenties: got my hair professionally colored
In my thirties: waiting for more grey so I can color my hair fun jewel tones without bleaching first
In my teens: "I can pull another all-nighter"
In my late twenties: "I'm ready to take a nap tomorrow"
In my early thirties: "I'm ready to stretch tomorrow"
I'm so glad I'm no longer around someone who pressured me to wear no bra and no makeup because a bra was a sign that I was about to leave his house
Anyway, time to take my antidepressant when I have intrusive thoughts about stuff like that
A strong knee-jerk reaction isn't necessarily a sign that the criticism is correct, but sometimes that it's not nuanced and doesn't see someone's full humanity
Recognizing people positioning themselves as above you — and being angry about the unfairness — doesn’t mean you did something wrong
I appreciate the saying, "When you curse the devil for having horns, it is the innocent bull who hears."
It is an antidote to the idea that only the guilty would be bothered by an accusation — a thought-terminating cliché that pre‑emptively discredits dissent and disregards collateral damage
I've been more disappointed in humans this past year than any year before
In part bc when you're a kid or young adult, you're calibrating standards for normal human kindness
Some people just have lower standards, or they're conditional, performative, convenience-based
Not everyone has your heart
Being cute (or even just generally attractive) is not the same as being respected or loved for who you are.
I wish more people understood that.
The conditional "kindness" Asian women experience for being "cute" can be revoked the second we don't comply with fetishizing stereotypes of submission
My sobering but sad realization about certain feminists claiming "no healthy grown woman weighs under 130 pounds"...
...as if they don't see non-Black women of color tend to be petite compared to Euro-Americans...
...is that there's plenty of anti-Asian racism, resentment in the feminist movement
It's not on me to disprove the stereotypes of Asian women being "SO TINY" and "CUTE" and looking "SO YOUNG"
I'll eat food that makes me feel good
I'll lift weights that feel good to me
I'll keep refining my gun marksmanship
I'll keep fucking off to be my own boss
I'll keep fucking off to be me