Amanda Bryana

Pulled out the mental health emergency show, just to try to get my anxiety to calm the fuck down. Nothing else is working. My brain is so deeply familiar with The Mighty Boosh it acts on a subconscious level and gradually displaces everything else for a while.

Coverart in center, by Luigiix. "Cry Wolf", "To a Monster Bound 1", "P.J.C. Cahill" text on art. Surrounding coverart are the following comments: (left side) "Lesbian werewolf paranormal romance!" "Mutual yearning and pining! "I need her, but I can't have her..."" "Dignity for the unhoused! Healing community bonds!" "Rugged, tough tomboy with a big heart falls for fun, warm bartender!" "Furious wolf ladies roar and bite their way through everyone ticking them off!" (right side) "Sweet, gentle romance with werewolf monster violence!" "Russian mafia ice-queen werewolf for a villain!" "Aro/Ace rep with the firecracker Sheriff who loves her community!" "Both leading ladies have tragic pasts! Mutual healing, listening, understanding! <3" "Full, monstrous transformation for these werewolves!"

Cry Wolf!
-precious, disaster lesbians finding love!
-fully monstrous werewolves!
-FMC tomboy lesbian werewolf!
-Ice-queen Russian mobster werewolf villain!
-sympathy for the unhoused!
-healing with community AND love!

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#booksky 📢📚

Bonus from my stepmom in Texas: Percy has a new toy ❤️

Anxiety is doing the anxiety thing again, or still. I've doubled my anti-anxiety pills for the last few days, and I'm trying to work out if I can take another one without ending up in restless legs hell. I don't think I can.

#AwesomeCharacters

This is a quick one. I'm going to The Complex and there's a good chance I am staying forever 😂. They've got plenty of space, and I don't mind pitching in around the place to earn my keep. Other than a quick trip down the hill to the village, I can't see any reason to leave.

Watching The War Between the Land and the Sea, and the background track is so intrusive I can only hear about a third of the dialogue. It's a struggle to focus. I don't understand why so many shows do this now. 😒

I could neither face nor afford a PhD, but about 50% of the learning from my final MSc project was in poring over the qualitative data for weeks on end, and most of the other 50% was in the reading. No one likes reading 50 journal articles on the same thing, but that's how you understand the topic 🤷

Oh no!! Chronic pain is so fun like that. I've lost count of the number of times I answer 'What's wrong?' with 'I'm not quite sure yet. I'm still narrowing it down.'

Hope everything is back to baseline quickly.

I really struggle to see their motivation. Ok, they might get the piece of paper, although I suspect some of them are screwed when it comes to the bit where they have to talk about their subject. But there's no learning, no understanding, and no achievement. I don't understand the point.

Fat Throbbing Cock Friday 🥵🍆

I understand not wanting to read/engage with the prior research/analysis you're building on in your PhD about as much as I understand people using LLM extruders to "write" novels

Nobody is in academia, or publishing, for the money or glory

If you hate reading: DO SOMETHING ELSE WITH YOUR LIFE

At the same time, I've added 12k across 3 WIPs this week, so I can't complain too much. I am making progress. It's just that right now I'm making almost imperceptible progress on many many things instead of significant progress on one. It's all heading to the same point, but it doesn't feel as good.

I can't seem to settle on a WIP to work on for longer than a day or two at the moment. I've started chapter summaries to look for issues on the two older ones, and drifted away after 10 or so chapters. I've started mapping the series timeline, and drifted away. And I keep running through newer ones.

That's a sucky mixture. I hope everything settles down for you soon.

I'm not doing great with putting the issue that caused the major panic attack aside and moving on. I'm just annoyed and hurt now, but I'm not getting less annoyed and hurt, which is a worry. I don't feel secure to address it. I think that might make it worse. So I guess it's just time.

Btw, if you want to support Katie's tumor treatment and get something in return, you can also buy my books (esp off Itch since I get paid sooner than other retailers).

I get hubby to do that too. I've been having some back issues, which set off the tension headaches. which then do the cluster thing.

I also find, drop shoulders a couple of inches and move arms around a bit to relieve screen slump tension, to be useful for the migraine, and the unfun cluster tension headaches.

Found some really cool books. They're called The Music Lover's Portfolio, and they're hardbound biographies and sheet music from around the 1920s ish. It's a set of four volumes, so I just need to decide whether to sell individually or as a set.

About to dive into another box from the garage, and my past. I'm not convinced I have the mental resilience for this (I definitely don't) but this is the only time we have this week, so this is when it's happening.

A little Friday afternoon catch up with my newbies. Cole started acting oddly after Kyan got offered a reality show and turned it down. Then he left. No argument. No explanation. He just said he had to go out. Ky's not great with panic...

#WIPSnips #WritingCommunity

Words fought me tonight, but I triumphed... well, I got words onto the page. Tomorrow I'll tidy them up. Now it's sleep time.

leon

[ #BRart | #re9 | #art | #leon | #fanart]

Imagine the art that would be made if we weren’t all scrabbling to survive

Sarah Vaci is a "gender critical" artist who set out 4 years ago this month to create 100 portraits of "female detransitioners." To date, worldwide, she hasn't even found 100 to take part in her project, and at her current rate, it will take her 10 to 15 years to finish.

Why is this important? 1/

I would very much like the next tv show my brain fixates on to be longer than 1 season.

It's a fun one, and DD offers tons of content that's regularly updating (I don't know how they keep that up, honestly). Totally worth the sub.

I have to admit, I won't be sad to say goodbye to my 40s next year. It's been a tough decade and the hormones are making sure it finishes bizarrely. But I'm finishing out more authentically me than I started it and that's important.

I hope you find the fire again. I think we might all need it.

Completely understandable. I went through an apathetic phase when life was just being life and the timeline we're living in made at least some sense. Then I hit my 40s and both my life and the timeline spiralled, and I rediscovered my anger. Only now it's accompanied by the zero fucks of middle age.