Cyn

While my discord is still compromised and I don't currently have access to my server, my mods and I made a new one for now. You can find it here: discord.gg/Mp2Vkr7nB

I have everything secured and back now except for my original discord and my YouTube, we'll see if I can get those back

Oh and I just got my carrd back.

Still working on getting my YouTube back, I'm in an email thread with them, no idea if they'll end up helping. It's looking like I'm definitely gonna get my squarespace (my portfolio website) back since I'm able to provide my bank information to confirm the email change. Just got my ko-fi back.

My family has pooled our debt together and for the next year or two my parents and I would slave away doing minimum wage/tips, live frugally, & throw all of our paychecks at that debt until it's all gone. I really don't want to do that but it's looking like the only option at this point.

I'm sorry if I've been really negative lately, but Jesus fuck. I'm so tired. I've been at this for like 8 years. What the hell is it gonna take man.

I have no idea how to find the motive to work on art and animation and animatics when things keep happening that are so fucking draining and stressful. And I NEED to work on these things to have even a semblance of a chance of getting somewhere that isn't customer service for the rest of my life.

He was just a baby 😭 with a gun

I need something good to happen to me

Okay I might be able to get my YouTube back actually, fingers crossed

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A fay sitting on a bench waiting for someone. On the back of the main subject there are two red wings and the surroundings show trees, plants and flowers.

Fay. 🧚

Emotionally I'm doing fine, kind of feels like a fresh start tbh since my original gmail was always getting random shit. I wish my YouTube didn't get deleted but I think it's gone forever because YouTube support is notoriously shitty but I'll @ them over on X anyway I guess.

I've submitted tickets for discord, ko-fi, squarespace (portfolio), and carrd (website), to hopefully update those emails and get those accounts back. I also updated all of my social media, bank linked accounts like PayPal & Patreon, etc so everything is secure now.

So the hacker gained access to my Gmail & deleted it. Ive saved most of everything except what was in my Google drive and my YouTube is gone. They also gained access to my family's emails and we secured those.

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Hey all my discord got hacked :/ don't trust any DMs from that account
My new discord is cyndavilachase_

Wish Hamtaro had some sort of legacy and kept going or was reoccurring kind of like Pokemon or something

One of the designs ever

#artpost #study #animals

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Teriberka ✷

Despite everything Women

Happy women!

Trying to become active again ;-; Here's a gecqua piece! #pokemonwindswaves

Painted Portrait for Kaysa99

I need every single male artist that follows me to read this. It's not very long. You need to bear witness to this shit. You have to see it with your own eyes because you never will in your everyday life.

I'm serious, read it all please

I feel like up until I wrote my memoir I was living in some kind of hell. I can't believe it took almost 8 years to cohesively work all of that stuff out. Now that I'm out of that and doing much better, I don't really know what I want any more.

I've spent most of my 20s working mostly non-art jobs and working on my mental health with my therapist instead. The mental health part OBVIOUSLY was necessary, and I do have the tools to cope with the now, but.. I still wish things turned out differently and long for what could have been.