Jesse-J

I didn’t feel euphoria when I came out or when I took my first shot. I felt fucking relieved. Sure, the changes to my body are nice, but nothing beats the relief I felt. Everyone should have the tools for self actualization, whether that’s about gender or other forms of identity.

My whole life before coming out, I would hang out with guys. I would be in relationships with guys. I felt at home with gay men. It never felt straight and, in a way, that’s how I was able to accept that I’m transgender. How could I be anything but a gay man?

But also, even with the concept of comfort; I’ve found myself wondering too, “why did I have to be trans?”. Everything around us just makes it harder. If the world wasn’t like this, I probably wouldn’t care so much. But everyday almost, there’s something new to worry about.

I kinda don’t like the term “euphoria”, I feel it sets weird expectations. I always thought I was supposed to be in ecstasy or something when I feel affirmed. I’ve felt some comfort over time (comes and goes)… but not euphoria. I dunno, maybe the way I think of it can be of use for you? /pos

I come from a time where the vocabulary wasn’t there for me to use. I didn’t know I was just allowed to be a boy. That’s part of why I’m such a big supporter of teaching this stuff in school. I wasted so much time existing in a void. I came out at 29, after a phase of hyper femininity.

Literally… just cut out a few letters… I always wanted the “male version” of my name and it just fits for someone born in the 90s

Oh my god that’s wonderful

I saw the first motorcycle in the wild today. Holding back on getting mine out, no garage and an ice storm on the way this week 🫡 but it’s coming. Thank fuck.

I wanna hear it move. I want the audio stim of like. Having 3 of these in my vicinity. Imagine. Ripping some off. But like. There’s just more underneath. Love me some interactive toys.

Ooooh looking forward to having more time and playing pokopia 🥺 the child in me is vibrating over it.

Oh I was looking at your face ☺️ but yes. The latex just enhances that 🥰

Happy birthday ❤️ you wear your age well

naked drawing group

Aw no I’m sorry 😞

What’s canceled??

Ah yeah, if it’s raised that’s probably still some really small scabbing there. Good call.

If it has no scabs, likely. If you are scared of it, just make sure the water isn’t too hot.

Me too.
Let’s love even harder.

Earlier, I posted that they both live in Kansas and I apologize for that, my Canadian ass reacted fast and my brain did not parse the difference. Still, it’s not a great situation and I only want the best for my friend.

Nyxie is my friend. She lives on the Missouri side of Kansas city, but recent legislation affects hers and her partners daily lives. It’s likely unsafe for them to remain in the area long term. If you can, please help my friend relocate.

Sorry, I got overwhelmed about it. I will fix that.

By request, boosting this thread with resources for queer Kansans.

Don't despair. I've lived through times like this before (albeit not as intensely negative). These are the times when the community comes together to keep us all safe. ♥️

Sometimes the hardest events in our life give way to some of the best.

I’ve always believed in what you make. Don’t be afraid to raise your prices, you deserve fair compensation and I think your free stream idea is great ❤️

Hope I can stop by in one of your streams sometime 💖

We're holding a #fursuit auction to make a donation to ACLU Kansas as they work to oppose SB 244.

SB 244 is an anti-transgender bill that has invalidated the driver’s licenses and birth certificates of people who have changed their gender markers on these documents.

Cont.👇 #fursuitmaker #furry

If you have the means, please donate to the Trans Continental Pipeline right now. They are a Colorado based org that helps trans people relocate and they are overwhelmed with requests. Colorado borders Kansas, and TCP has the infrastructure to help get people out.

tcpipeline.org

That’s why education about this is so important. Imagine an alternate life where I knew who I was earlier; maybe I wouldn’t be so “late” in life. It’s a common sentiment for trans folks: I wish I’d started earlier.

I’d avoided a lot of pain and resentment. Education and representation matter.

Isn’t it funny that I felt gay before I ever felt trans? It felt gay to be with men. Or, maybe it’s just that I had to words to say “gay” but didn’t have the words to express that I am trans. Looking back, as a child, I never did feel like a girl and it felt like the greatest effort to emulate that.

HUFF!! Man 😩😩😩

Yeah. I have no idea how I was operating before. And of course, looking at photos of me before and seeing how uncomfortable I looked. I wish I knew sooner; there were some very ugly years. But of course, I didn’t have the language or the understanding. Something was wrong, but I didn’t know what.

I should be sleeping. But I can’t help but yell into the void: Testosterone fucking saved my life. I never thought I’d ever have a grip on identity or that I’d even live this long.

It’s cruel to assume that I, or anyone else, was ever doing this for attention. It’s cruel to take that away.