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for some reason i haven’t been able to find señorita bananas in supermarket as easily as before 🥀

also dreamt that we were discussing it on LJ? and the person who started the discussion post wasn’t even a fan or a comm member so they were like “now can you do your posts in your own comm so i don’t see them in my feed”

dreamt of watching an OOR concert where they covered a nicki minaj song (idk if it was a real song) and their hair was dyed pink

ew the running people were also right??? why are the activities recommended for maintaining bone density(?) activities i HATE 😂

wdym the insufferable gym ppl are right and lifting is important 💀 that involves being outside and spending money and never sticking to it bc i dislike being outside and spending money lol

previously it was tiramisu

today in words i struggled to say correctly (i’ve discovered that i’m very bad at accents/stresses haha): pulmonologist

if we have sufficient oil supply and we have incoming supplies “in transit” why did you just use your emergency powers to reduce excise tax on fuel products…? bro doesn’t have a plan i’m so scared fjdjfjdjdjdjd

“we are talking to many other countries who we normally do not buy oil from but hopefully we will come to an agreement with them” i mean that’s nice but the vagueness is not filling me with confidence djddjdkkd wdym we are “in good shape” i’m so confused

i thought i was done spiralling about the immediate future and then i see the latest government announcements lol

or maybe not…? lol-ing bc on my default mobile browser (where restrictions are applied by my ISP) any tumblr url except for tumblr dot com seems to work??? like tumblr dot com slash dashboard is working and so is my tumblr url idk in any case i can access the site fine

tumblr is accessible on default DNS settings again 😂

Day 11 Madoka and Homura

apropos of nothing, i wonder if i’m ready to go back to dateless planners next year… it’s so hard to incorporate my usual daily to-do-lists with my current setup though i do think it’s super cool how my current journal has all the systems (monthly, weekly, daily + yearly index)

suddenly hit with the realization that i haven’t had any creative output since the year started 😱 i’m also neither reading nor watching anything so idk what i’ve been doing djdjdjdkdl

*friend’s brother’s wake, not brother’s friend djdjdjdkdk i am not on good enough terms with my brother

last week he was too tired to do much but nap all day, this week he got diagnosed. now that he’s on antibiotics he has the energy to be unnecessarily uncooperative. we really are so lucky he didn’t get covid bc it’s so hard!!! when my mom got it she even tried to hide if from us & kept sneaking out.

i just came from my brother’s friend’s wake (complication from diabetes) so i’m not in the best frame of mind and i’m so tired of men and their stupid egos. i have been texting my sil (also a doctor) instead bc my older bro (ENT specialist) won’t engage anymore

the way i just stopped catastrophizing about the direct impacts of the 🇺🇸 🇮🇱 🇮🇷 war and am now catastrophizing about family things bc my dad is walking around the house and coughing unmasked with pneumonia, fighting his doctor (my brother, also prideful and hot-headed), and getting new symptoms

but good for them for writing their own song and collaborating with a TW band that does make good night-themed music

comments:
did you know our idol wrote this CN-language song, they're so multi-lingual and talented!!!

my hater ass:
oh is that why the lyrics are kinda mid

oh he’s also blaming the failure of his business on his wife’s lack of “support”. even though her family loaned him money to statt up. now he wants to start a new business… to pay them back. but it’ll definitely work this time bc he thrived ONCE, he just needs her to believe he’s a genius 💔

the man just wants validation for his business ventures but they all failed (after some strong starts) 😬 he’s ~feeling the pressure of sending their daughter to school~, but his ego is too big for regular jobs lol nooo it has to be a business where he works 16 hours a day, he’s a Provider 🥺 👉👈

reading a sadboi post on a local r*ddit forum where OP is like “men are loved only when they make money” and all the comments are sympathizing with him even though his problems seem self-inflicted. wdym your wife isn’t helping, she got a side job to help with the bills and her family lends you money

yesterday we got to talking the dangers of unmonitored health conditions and the married women were like “we need to take care of our men 😩” while i silently judged the men for not taking care of themselves. it’s kinda funny tho bc among my straight married friends it’s usually the men who can cook

a traditional painting of herons in flight among trees, green, pink and white hues

I painted herons in flight. medium: Nicker poster colour on Arches watercolour paper

PH twt has caught on this and is now big mad… i honestly assumed it was a certificate issue (i was getting errors before i got this error page) and i can still access the site on my desktop browser where i probably changed my DNS (bc my ISP banned a t0rrent site 😂)

me, on our way to the wake:
oh, i remember this, the last time i was here—

*sudden flash of memory*

me:
…was also for a wake…

just realized i went out and drove an extra 2 hours to pick up/drop off a friend… our city is bigger than i thought lol (though it’s really mostly traffic)

IR PR appealing to the murrican need to morally feel good about themselves lol