mousegirl

okay the new silvermoon music is kinda getting to me in a bad way. i hate the sound of the random people making random noises specially towards the start. why.

had to pay for a vpn to play the stupid game i already purchased the base for and keep a paid subscription for just so i can access it and actually play it because otherwise it disconnects me constantly and has been a reported issue by other people but since were from south america it doesnt matter👍

ill miss you, crunchy eversong woods

apparently you can buy manga tomes on ebay? i really want to but how do i justify a purchase like that... i dont even have anywhere to store books

im so tired of romance stories ending with birth/children/"happy family"

why must a woman have children to achieve a happy ending? its such a cheap way of ending too, couldnt come up with anything else? like theres reasons to live besides reproducing...

in other news more money being wasted like nothing for my "health" that i should apparently "care" about... i dont want to

going to the dentist always feels like getting stabbed and then robbed at the same time but unfortunately it is unavoidable otherwise presumably my teeth will rot away and fall off so

this is why i hate having pp attached to vgen, just so many god damn fees, but pp is also what most people use to pay so either i lose out on clients or eat the earning loss... either way im losing

twitter removed the blue bg option so now its only black or white and both hurt my eyes so like. thanks i guess

stupid fucking website but bluesky still isnt really close so like... just a mediocre experience overall bouncing between them

ill never be able to get rid of it...

oh boohoo, you wanted to log in to your account? apply to jobs? think again! better give us your personal phone number so we can fill you with unwanted messages and calls! we totally need this information so we can sell it online later to the highest bidder! im so tired

job seeking websites feeling entitled to your personal info such as phone number? whats your fucking problem? no indeed i wont let you spam call me with your bullshit. guess i cant log in to that account anymore. great future were living in

sometimes i see those accounts dedicated solely to a game or character within a game, and i want to do something like that for wow but it would probably be hard to stick solely to that and not drift onto other things or post unrelated content

hence the occasional game screenshot i guess

mythic mount get

people in vrchat be like
im not trying to analyze your personality and assume things from you as a complete stranger but *analyzes you and assumes things about you*

one of the very few things that often comforts me when i feel the worst is reading romance stories, but given all the ones i was reading have now disappeared off the face of the earth and i have no real way to remember what they were, i feel inconsolable

hasnt even been a year since i bought it btw. gee thanks.

corsairs KNOWS their shitty fucking mice all have this issue too. its inherent to the mouse. but the seemingly common fix isnt fucking working and its driving me insane why does this shit keep happening to me? do i deserve it? why? why? why im so fucking tired always some bullshit has to happen

out of no where my mouse is having an issue where the scroll wheel is absolutely fucked in that it goes up when i scroll down and goes down when i scroll up, i took it apart and cleaned everything and added two drops of lubricant oil and fucking nothing :) :) :) this is a 120$ mouse :) :) :)

my cat is old, 16 this year, so naturally her body changes for the worse with age, its expected

even then, seeing how her hips are sunken in, smaller than ever before, it makes me so sad

i know nothing can be done, shes old, shell keep aging, but even then... if only she could remain healthy

ive been so busy and stressed out i forgot im supposed to work on a ych for valentines like every year...

at least my contract ends on the 31st, so i guess i can go back to "focusing" on art then...

despite being a cisgendered woman, i feel like ill never actually be or feel like “a woman”
ill never be pretty enough, cute enough
just an abomination trying to pass off as feminine, a joke

at least, i can be perceived as my fursona instead, so people wont know anyway… no matter how bad i feel

batoto...........

rip guess im not reading any more manga or webcomics coz i have literally no where to now

won the stupid fucking idiot award (got hit by bus door as it opened because i was too close)
good job dumbass

cat had to be hospitalized, running low on funds and might have to do “emergency” commissions or some shit after all 🥲

cat hasnt been feeling well which means more vet fees and sooner than i had anticipated so i might have to open discounted commissions or something to be able to cover them in a short amount of time

hopefully it doesnt get to that, but, who knows 🙃

"at least i can rest once the contract ends" but then im out of a job, then ill feel stressed out because i wont have a job
"i can focus on art again" but really when did i ever focus on art? my sales only worsen with time
every day every passing moment i feel like im wasting away

i dont do anything but bitch and moan lately and even then it feels like theres nothing else i can do because my life just keeps getting worse and theres no escape it just keeps going and ive been suffocating for so long now i forgot how to breath

life is so miserable lately, so bleak
i have nothing to look forward to, nothing will change or improve, so what then