maybe i am fundamentally just a broken person that truly cannot be fixed
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maybe i am fundamentally just a broken person that truly cannot be fixed
must be nice to be a likeable person
that's honestly a big part of why we arent legally changing it to Critters tbh, we know a lot of people wouldn't take it seriously
๐: especially the whole Trusting part.....
๐: it's a type of enrichment we are deeply missing in life
but we're also so particular about the type of sex/pleasure we want that i genuinely think it'll be next to impossible to find a dom that can give us what we want
๐: Having some sort of sadistic pleasure dom that i not only trust but is also close enough to see in person at least semi regularly would fix me i think
one day we'll have the energy to exist properly, i hope.
im sorry to everyone that misses us and that wishes we were more present. existing is difficult and tiring and we just don't have the energy for it
one day things will stop being bad all the time, right?
i hope so.
extreme sad tonight.
feeling slightly betrayed, but also feel stupid for feeling this way cause it shouldn't have been news to us.
heck, even VR Chat stuff would probably count, if VR didnt make us nauseous/we had the proper setup for it
or even just more people to casually do kink stuff with in person. we're desperately missing that enrichment in our lives
i think if we had access to a nearby sadistic pleasure dom our life would improve significantly
existing
๐: wish i could get hypnotized into nonstop overstimulation for several hours, would be nice to not be able to think for a bit
pinata sonas are really good.....
problem solving causing problems
๐ - one day maybe ill feel like i actually exist
kinda want to take a break from existing for like a week or two
i miss who we used to be. we've gotten so bitter lately
wish i could feel alive again
feeling this again
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internal self help
my favorite part is that it's like this every single day it's so cool and awesome
one of my favorite human experiences is being so stressed and exhausted that i feel like I'm gonna throw up
wish our body didn't hate us. tired of always being exhausted and in pain.
one day things will stop sucking, right?
maybe jerking off will get rid of the sad and then I'll be able to sleep
the longer we wait the more it stresses us out but our brain refuses to cooperate ughhhhhhhhhh