timmy ♥

nothing thank god but i very nearly vommed all over him 😃

so hard to make new friends bc ur supposed to talk about ur interests or whatever but my only hobbies are dieting, binge eating, and having sex with strange men

almost reached gw then b/p'ed for 4 days straight why am i such a dumb bitch

having side effects of an ed without being skinny is just humiliating

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Treating myself to a little b/p sesh 🤪

PSA don't try to suck dick if you have recently purged

pro my pants are falling down
con my pants are falling down

lowkey binged at 4am but i lost 0.7kgs in the morning so imma pretend it didn't happen

i cant decide what to have for dinner

like you can't control the urge coming but you can control your physical actions

like stop trying to make the thoughts go away, let them come but conceptualise them as apart from you because the real you doesn't want to binge

will do 😛

it's helped me so far but i haven't been having super strong binge urges so

yeah in the book she talks abt how she would try to reason with/fight the urges but it just made them stronger bc its like validating them as something that can control you ? and she stopped when she just let the thoughts come but didn't do anything about them just like watched the thoughts

if i try describe the advice in the book it will sound like "just stop" but the way she describes it makes sense

like primal instincts vs rational brain
you don't have to fight the urges you just have to not do what they want
idk im bad at explaining

i haven't finished the book yet tho

it's also really relatable tho she goes into her own binge eating a lot so it doesn't feel like some dumbass being like "just eat normal" it's like she's been in the trenches with us

only thing is .. part of the advice is that you have to stop restricting ... ..

really reccomend reading Brain Over Binge guys !! the advice is a little bit like. "just stop". but it's helping me understand how my brain works a lot

i almost fit my goal jeans 🤩 it's been over a year since i fit them oops...
they're too tight rn but i can actually put them on . in July last year i could barely squeeze my calves in them

my arms look so good rn

absolutely 🫂

i set a gw for this week and was scared i wouldn't meet it but it's tuesday and i already did yay

being mean to yourself will only make things worse, you're not a failure 🫂

🫂🫂

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lost a kg

remembered i have cauliflower yahoo

got a job interview then looked at the job again and idk if i want it it sounds like the most stressful thing ever

same but cookies and cream ice cream

even before i purged i would gag on the brush tbh. doesn't feel clean otherwise

reading brain over binge ,, overwhelmed need to take a break. i think she's right though