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i will text her and check in!!!!

i miss albedo

there's really no good local metal bands here and it fucking sucks

i was productive today thank god

YESSSSSSS I FINALLY HAVE AN ACCOUNT W THE INSURANCE SITE SO I CAN APPLY TODAY

praying i get this asm position even tho im underqualified bc the pay is Nice

ok i was not as productive as i wanted to be but i was still at least Somewhat productive soooooo

folded some clothes . cleaned up just a Tiny bit … progress

tomorrow we're getting insurance stuff situated bc my mental health is so dire i am an immediate danger to myself 💚

suicidal thoughts are back and i'm just begging my brain to let me live

depression

saw a little violin in an antique shop while waiting in line at the pop up. i like finding things that remind me of my grandparents

one more sleep until bad omens oooooooh my god

tssf how i will always love you

IM SO EXCITED TO SEE BAD OMENS TOMORROW BUT I CANT TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT IT

bro i'm in such a yappy mood

praying we get my insurance shit figured out this weekend so i can get back on T bc holy fuck

on a lighter note. i hope to become the alt boy of my dreams since i didn't get a chance the first time around <3

can i calm down im not 13 and this isn't tumblr

im so very sensitive today

i love you too thank you 💚 grief just sucks lol i want my people back

sorry for being sad and annoying it's just i feel a gaping void in my chest that i fear will only grow larger with time. all sacrifices to the void are deemed unworthy and so he grows

i genuinely can't stop crying it's embarrassing and pathetic at this point

i miss my grandma. i think she'd be so proud of me

2026 is the year i dive back into my alternative phase

i'm listening to my old bands don't look at me i'm excited ok

i'm listening to music with airpods in and lea keeps having to tell me to calm down bc i'm breathing SO fucking heavily

why does being sick make me suicidal

here for whatever you need, when you need it 🫡

i promise people wouldn't be your friend if they didn't want to. there is no way to "bother" someone into being your friend. people love you and want you around. it's just your brain playing tricks on you 💚