a friend of someone who used to be a close friend died
they were my age and full of dreams to achieve and now theyre gone
24.02.2026 18:41
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a friend of someone who used to be a close friend died
they were my age and full of dreams to achieve and now theyre gone
life really is full of surprising things
wish i could work on live2d projects more but being away from home and not having my pc is kinda a bummer
i found a workaround so i may be able to fix some old stuff but its not optimal ...
i deserve to be punished
i was a so worried a jote might have killed them but i hear them sing so loudly now im happy seeing they're grown
there is a nest of seagulls near my house and im so happy seeing the babies fly so freely now
plus we're too many and too many disabled lmao
why does making food and cleaning up take SO MUCH TIME ffs
been retaking work slowly after a very loaded month
at least home doesnt need as much work as of lately so ive been able to have some time to actually work orzUu i truly hate not being able to stop everything and have time magically lmao
lately i kinda only talk to doctors what a bummer
every day i lose hope that we can get better
i gotta admit being a child must be even harder nowadays
the fact that im just crumbling down scares me
ive been wanting too much to end my life again.
plus i never get time for taking care of myself........
im showering weekly at this point bc i hate the thought of taking time for myself how egotistical of me
mom broke her foot and she's the caregiver of all of us 4 in the house, so that means im responsible now and i hate the thought of having to do things around unwanted people
one of my cats died today... a sad thing but at least he had a great life
yapo servel devuelveme a mi pololo que lo extraño
man i wanna expand my portfolio but i have a lot on my plate already
at least model is like halfway there so i can update that at least n.nUu
plus my model is going along well enough to keep me satisfied
i love my partner so much!!!!
also been doing good
goes to say, ill be mostly offline this next 2 weeks too to readjust
readjusted meds so i had a terrible crisis yesterday, ended up in the ER to see if they could calm me down... I went walking for 4 hours straight because I felt unsafe...
ive been crying non-stop lately
i have an appointment for friday!!! seeing my doc finally (havent since july)
Plus I've been readjusting to losing some people, either to life being incompatible or death so I've been grieving a lot of things this year. Been rebuilding my circle slowly too so it doesn't overwhelm me too.
Oh, I've been mostly offline working on therapy and things... I get on the computer kinda only to play something or work sporadically so I'm grateful about people being patient with me at this time in my life.
i was too shy to ask for one... he just heard i needed something to decompress and started motivating me in looking for something and getting it
big steps in my book!!!!
my bf bough me my first fidget/stim toy ever and im so happy cuz its exactly what i asked for q.q
Like what's the point of trying to be anything at all... I won't ever be not depressed or burnout...
feeling so unstable i barely get up out of bed