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@sweetiesub.bsky.social

2 days ago

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2 days ago

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3 days ago

Final Wrap of Book Club The Sound of Gravel Come join us in wrapping up our thoughts on book club. Let us know how you felt about the book too. https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this conversation, the hosts reflect on their unexpected live stream experience, discuss their interview with Celia LeBaron, and delve into the complexities of childhood trauma, the impact of polygamy, and the challenges of leaving cults. They explore themes of accountability, the role of education, and the burdens of motherhood within polygamous societies, while emphasizing the importance of sharing personal stories to raise awareness and advocate for victims. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the themes of abuse, resilience, and the journey of healing as they discuss Ruth's transformative experiences. They explore the complexities of family dynamics, the weight of community silence, and the role of mothers in nurturing and protecting their children. The discussion highlights the importance of finding one's voice and inner strength, as well as the challenges of forgiveness and moving forward from trauma. Through personal anecdotes and reflections, the speakers emphasize the significance of triumph over adversity and the ongoing journey of self-discovery and healing. Chapters 00:00 Unexpected Live Stream Surprise 02:51 Reflections on Celia LeBaron and Cult Experiences 06:05 The Impact of Childhood Trauma 08:58 Book Club Discussion: The 27 Laws of Polygamy 11:51 Returning to the Community: A Complex Journey 15:13 The Cycle of Abuse and Accountability 17:50 The Struggles of Leaving a Cult 21:12 The Role of Education in Cult Communities 23:46 The Burden of Motherhood in Polygamous Societies 26:55 Victim Blaming and Accountability 30:06 The Role of Social Services in Cults 32:49 The Importance of Sharing Stories 36:03 Cultural Reflections: Handmaid's Tale and Big Love 46:05 Rising from Abuse: Ruth's Transformation 49:27 Finding Inner Strength and Voice 52:17 The Weight of Family Secrets 56:30 Community Silence and Accountability 01:00:29 The Role of Mothers in Healing 01:04:11 Forgiveness and Moving Forward 01:09:14 Triumph Over Trauma 01:12:53 Reflections on Parenting and Healing 01:17:04 The Journey of Healing and Self-Discovery Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"Final Wrap of Book Club the Sound of Gravel"
Notes to Self 444
11 Mar 2026 [1:31:43]
#ApostolicUnitedBrethren #AUB #FLDS #Mormons #Cult
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/AsbOlfGzk0yFbIblwhS9kA

Tracy Lee

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4 days ago

the #Kunigundenkapelle (St. Kunigunde’s Chapel), located on the #Altenberg, about 1 km south of Burgerroth, near #Aub in Lower Franconia, #Bavaria.
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1 week ago

27 Rules of Celestial Marriage, How to be good Sister Wives https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ The rules are to long to fit in the description. Here is a link to read them https://www.utahhuts.com/fine/real/estate/blog/191703/_27-Rules-of-Celestial-Marriage This episode explores the 27 laws of celestial marriage from a critical perspective, delving into their historical context, implications for women and families, and the underlying control mechanisms. The hosts share personal insights and humor to navigate a complex and controversial subject. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Celestial Marriage Laws 03:08 Background and Context of Polygamy 06:03 The Role of Humor in Discussing Serious Topics 08:56 Understanding the 27 Laws of Celestial Marriage 11:50 The Separation of Endowments and Marriage 15:00 The Importance of Priesthood in Family Dynamics 17:55 Exploring the First Laws of Celestial Marriage 20:53 The Concept of Women as Property 24:09 The Responsibilities of a Husband 27:04 The Expectations of Wives 29:56 Confidentiality and Trust in Marriage 33:08 The Impact of Leadership on Family Dynamics 36:16 The Consequences of Breaking Trust 38:47 Final Thoughts on Celestial Marriage Laws 45:55 Navigating Polygamous Relationships 51:51 The Impact of Harsh Communication 56:57 Impartiality and Family Dynamics 01:01:30 Judgment and Bias in Polygamous Families 01:08:40 The Role of Family Gatherings 01:13:52 Seeking Guidance and Leadership 01:19:24 The Need for Structure in Polygamous Families Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"27 Rules of Celestial Marriage, how to be Good #SisterWives"
Notes to Self 444
9 Mar 2026 [1:27:11]
#ApostolicUnitedBrethren #AUB #Cult
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/bhhUU73EkECV4b7yda6RbQ

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1 week ago

The Apostolic United Brethren (AUB) Today: New Rules, Division & Warnings w/ @NotestoSelf444 In this episode, we sit down with Melanie and Corey from @NotestoSelf444 for an update on what is currently happening inside the Apostolic United Brethren (AUB)—the fundamentalist Mormon group known for practicing polygamy and featured on shows like Sister Wives. Melanie has a unique perspective as the daughter of the current AUB prophet, giving insight into how the church is functioning today. We discuss changes to church rules, growing division within the community, and how members are responding to questions about leadership and authority. We also talk about the fracturing happening within the AUB, including disagreements over allegiance to the current prophet and what that means for families still inside the religion. Finally, Melanie and Corey share important warnings and advice for those who are still involved in the group and what they hope people understand about life inside and leaving a fundamentalist religious community. As former members of Mormon and fundamentalist Mormon cultures ourselves, we offer context and perspective on how these changes affect individuals, families, and faith. If you’re interested in understanding modern polygamist groups, fundamentalist Mormonism, and the realities of leaving high-control religions, this conversation offers a rare inside look. If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy New website is now up! www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com ✅SUBSCRIBE NOW : https://shorturl.at/inqrE ➡️ Checkout our other Videos: 🔷Ex-Polygamist Reacts to Sister Wives: Season 18 Ep. 1-2 ✅https://youtu.be/R9u4wAzUjK0 🔷Exclusive Interview with an Insider: Exposing FLDS Secrets ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIjlLejkETU 🔷Breaking Free: One Girl's Journey from Warren Jeffs' Control ✅ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-bH4fLMZX0 🔷Behind FLDS Doors: The Tragic Tale of a Family Torn Apart by Warren Jeffs ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFFQ_j_RJCo 🔷Tour Of The Dream Center, A Refuge Home For Ex-Polygamous Families ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbqR1UJFJBY #like #comment #post #share and #encourage other to #subscribe to the channel.

"The #ApostolicUnitedBrethren (#AUB) Today: New Rules, Division & Warnings to Members"
Growing Up in Polygamy
7 Mar 2026 [0:47:39]
#Cult
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/hJ9fg4zShUGFP7lyQlYW5w

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1 week ago

Let's Celebrate 20K! Sister Wives, Polygamy Q & A Live Come celebrate our channel hitting 20,000 subscribers! We never dreamed we would get here so fast. Thank you all! Bring us all your polygamy, personal, healing etc questions and we will do our best to answer them. https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this engaging conversation, the hosts celebrate reaching 20,000 subscribers while discussing their advocacy for individuals leaving polygamous communities. They delve into the dynamics of leadership changes within these communities, share personal experiences of trauma and healing, and reflect on the impact of education and work ethic instilled in children. The conversation also touches on the challenges of cooking for large families and the importance of emotional support in relationships. This conversation delves into the complexities of family dynamics, emotional intelligence, and the impact of upbringing on personal development. The speakers reflect on their experiences with cooking in large families, the importance of healthy arguments, and the emotional connections tied to food. They discuss the challenges of navigating religious trauma, particularly in the context of polygamy, and emphasize the significance of emotional validation and accountability in parenting. The dialogue highlights the generational aspects of trauma and the necessity for healing, while also addressing the role of leadership in shaping parenting styles. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the complexities of healing from childhood trauma, the importance of validating personal experiences, and the challenges of navigating family dynamics within a religious context. They emphasize the significance of critical thinking and personal agency in understanding spirituality and the need for accountability in cases of abuse. The discussion highlights the journey of healing, the impact of parental validation, and the importance of fostering open communication about difficult experiences. Chapters 00:00 Celebrating Milestones and Community Engagement 02:52 Advocacy and Support for Leaving Polygamy 06:07 Leadership Changes and Community Dynamics 11:58 Personal Experiences and Healing Journeys 18:12 Education and Work Ethic in Polygamous Communities 23:57 Coping with Trauma and Emotional Healing 30:00 Cooking Skills and Family Dynamics 45:40 Cooking in Large Families 47:57 The Importance of Healthy Arguments 49:22 Cultural Reflections on Food and Emotion 50:47 Navigating Religious Trauma 53:04 The Complexity of Polygamy Discussions 54:47 Parenting and Emotional Intelligence 01:00:03 Generational Trauma and Healing 01:05:05 The Role of Leadership in Parenting 01:09:50 Changing Perspectives on Parenthood 01:15:02 The Impact of Humor in Healing 01:20:13 The Journey of Emotional Validation 01:27:07 The Journey of Healing and Hope 01:30:03 Navigating Parental Validation and Childhood Memories 01:36:05 The Complexity of Family Dynamics and Religion 01:40:05 Critical Thinking and Personal Agency in Religion 01:45:07 The Impact of Abuse and the Need for Accountability 01:57:02 The Importance of Direct Connection to Spirituality Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"Let's Celebrate 20K! #SisterWives, Polygamy Q & A Live"
Notes to Self 444
6 Mar 2026 [2:08:49]
#ApostolicUnitedBrethren #AUB #Cult
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楽しいニュース.com

@tanonews.bsky.social

2 weeks ago

お茶がテーマのホテル「ホテル 1899 東京」で「睡眠の日」に合わた新プラン「心と体の巡り」を良くする９つの特典付き茶葉の香りで眠り、茶の栄養で目覚める快眠体験
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#楽しいニュース #ホテル1899東京 #龍名館 #Aub

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2 weeks ago

Sister Wives: Meri Brown FINALLY Exposes Kody: “I Didn’t Want Sister Wives, But He Did It Anyway!” #sisterwives #realitytv #cults #polygamy Meri Brown sat down with Notes to Self Melanie & shared her experience in plural marriage. Despite saying for years that this way of life was "her choice," Meri now admits that she had no choice & no say about Kody taking new wives. She is also writing a book all about it. Support the Channel By Becoming a Member: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqW9ZAW0ZNqfWo9PZ3OX4Fg/join Follow Katie Joy on Social Media: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/withoutacrystalball/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/withoutacrystalball/ Disclaimer: Without a Crystal Ball is a commentary channel. The views expressed by Katie Joy are her opinions and should not be considered fact. Katie Joy discusses trending topics, current events, reality tv & More. This channel is for your entertainment. Please make sure you conduct your own research on any topics to verify any information. All Clips Obtained through TLC YouTube & Used under Fair Use: The Copyright Laws of the United States recognizes a “fair use” of copyrighted content. Section 107 of the U.S. Copyright Act states: “NOTWITHSTANDING THE PROVISIONS OF SECTIONS 106 AND 106A, THE FAIR USE OF A COPYRIGHTED WORK, INCLUDING SUCH USE BY REPRODUCTION IN COPIES OR PHONORECORDS OR BY ANY OTHER MEANS SPECIFIED BY THAT SECTION, FOR PURPOSES SUCH AS CRITICISM, COMMENT, NEWS REPORTING, TEACHING (INCLUDING MULTIPLE COPIES FOR CLASSROOM USE), SCHOLARSHIP, OR RESEARCH, IS NOT AN INFRINGEMENT OF COPYRIGHT.” THIS VIDEO AND OUR YOUTUBE CHANNEL IN GENERAL MAY CONTAIN CERTAIN COPYRIGHTED WORKS THAT WERE NOT SPECIFICALLY AUTHORIZED TO BE USED BY THE COPYRIGHT HOLDER(S), BUT WHICH WE BELIEVE IN GOOD FAITH ARE PROTECTED BY FEDERAL LAW AND THE FAIR USE DOCTRINE FOR ONE OR MORE OF THE REASONS NOTED ABOVE.

"#SisterWives: Meri Brown Finally Exposes Kody: 'I didn't want Sister Wives, But He did it Anyway!'"
Without A Crystal Ball
25 Feb 2026 [0:17:10]
#ApostolicUnitedBrethren #AUB #Cult
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/1YyuOl5slUiSiFVQoWDtow

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3 weeks ago

Episode 52 | Mel and Corey Expose the AUB: The Prophet Married a 15 Year Old at 39 Follow Mel and Corey here:!!instagram.com/notestoself444youtube.com/@NotestoSelf444⁩  tiktok.com/@notestoself444Support me on substack: ❤️ https://jadenjeffs.substack.com/On the Jaden Jeffs podcast, Mel and Corey share their experiences growing up in the Apostolic United Brethren (AUB) polygamist community in Utah and Montana. Mel was raised with 34 siblings and four mothers, and says her father, David Watson, is the current AUB leader; Corey grew up in a United Order compound in Pinedale, Montana with his father’s nine wives and 39 children. They discuss AUB origins as a split from the FLDS in 1958, how leadership succession works in practice, and how marriage/courtship is arranged with an “illusion of choice.” Mel describes being married spiritually shortly after turning 17 to a 25-year-old, pressure to help court a second wife, and later learning her husband hired prostitutes while leadership would not grant her a release because he claimed there was no physical contact.00:45 Meet Mel & Corey: Raised AUB, Massive Families, and Their Channel02:20 AUB Origins & Leadership Succession: Splits, Prophets, and Power04:41 Leaving the AUB: Excommunication, Returning, and Finally Walking Away06:16 How AUB Courtship Works: “Illusion of Choice” and Teen Marriage08:25 Life in a United Order: One House, Many Wives, Work, and Childhood Trauma15:15 Is Polygamy Ever “Worth It”? Advice, Obligation, and Belief in Heaven19:04 Why They Questioned It: Favoritism, Hypocrisy, and Cory’s Excommunication Story25:05 Mel’s Breaking Point: Forced Courting, Abuse, Divorce Limbo, and Getting Out32:50 Sex Rules, Last Names, and Leadership Scandals: Abuse, Cover-Ups, and Control43:28 “We’re the Good Guys”… Until You Look Closer44:25 ‘We Live Polygamy Better’: Age, Consent, and Double Standards45:38 ‘Mature for Her Age’: How Families Justify Child Marriage47:54 Control, Shame, and the ‘Exorcism’ Night50:23 Modesty Rules & Temple Garments: Washings, Anointings, and Long Underwear54:01 Leaving Again & Meeting Cory: Divorce, ‘Releases,’ and Starting Over01:00:03 Joining the LDS Church… Then Seeing the Same Patterns01:05:35 Deconstructing After Religion: Community Loss and Identity Rebuild01:07:14 Divorce, ‘Nesting,’ Remarriage, and Learning Healthy Communication01:10:02 Plant Medicine, Deep Healing, and Why They Started the Podcast01:20:30 Where to Find Them + Final Advice for Anyone Trying to Leave👇**SHOP MERCH HERE FROM JADEN**[fromjaden.com](http://fromjaden.com)👇 **FOLLOW + SUPPORT THE PODCAST**Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3GHUWDyJ5ZJ0QzVu8EihBH?si=hpDUxgqMR9CIkwei0Ghiew🎧 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-jaden-jeffs-podcast/id1795576157✉️ Newsletter (Substack): https://jadenjeffs.substack.com/👇 **MY Website**JadenJeffs.com👇 **SOCIALS**Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/realjadenjeffs?igsh=cm9ybmY1dzk1dmNp&utm_source=qrTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jadenjeffs100?_r=1&_t=ZP-91rDt1rkLz5Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/1BtYdgFoS5/?mibextid=wwXIfr👇 **WATCH NEXT**➡️ Most Popular Videos: https://youtu.be/I-gZtaxMv9whttps://youtu.be/3WIYe15Ostshttps://youtu.be/rNKg83fMuN4➡️ Podcast Playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLk3w3VkHlWzRgsNC_wNeOBxa0AEBnpsCz&si=izu5YMpxghxqO13m👇 **BUSINESS**📩 Contact: heyjadenjeffs@gmail.comBuy me a Coffee via Venmo ❤️ https://venmo.com/u/fitoj

"Mel & Corey Expose the #AUB: The Prophet Married a 15 Year old at 39"
Jaden Jeffs
22 Feb 2026 [1:23:58]
#ApostolicUnitedBrethren #Cult
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/VwwLIRMbSUmV8b7JnrsgOg

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3 weeks ago

Surprise Live with Meri Brown https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this engaging conversation, Melanie and Mary explore their shared histories and experiences within the AUB community, discussing the deconstruction process, personal healing journeys, and the complexities of plural marriage. They reflect on the impact of reality TV on their lives, the cultural expectations surrounding relationships, and the concept of soulmates. The dialogue is rich with personal anecdotes and insights, providing a nuanced understanding of their past and present. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the complexities of plural marriages, personal growth, and the impact of trauma on relationships. They reflect on their experiences within polygamous families, the challenges of public perception, and the journey of writing their stories. The discussion highlights the importance of understanding different perspectives and the need for healing from past traumas, while also addressing the dynamics of family relationships and the effects of polygamy on children. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Welcoming Mary 02:58 Exploring Shared Histories and Deconstruction 05:47 Personal Experiences and Healing Journeys 09:12 Navigating Relationships and Family Dynamics 11:59 Cultural Expectations and Personal Choices 15:11 Understanding Plural Marriage and Its Challenges 18:08 The Impact of Reality TV on Personal Lives 21:07 Soulmates and Relationship Dynamics 24:10 Concluding Thoughts and Future Directions 36:06 Navigating Relationships in Plural Marriages 39:20 Reflections on Personal Growth and Change 43:28 The Journey of Writing and Storytelling 47:18 Parallels Between Reality and Fiction in Polygamy 49:51 The Impact of Polygamy on Children 51:08 Healing from Trauma and Personal Experiences 54:46 The Complexity of Family Dynamics 01:00:26 Online Presence and Public Perception 01:05:10 Future Plans and Community Engagement Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"Surprise Live with Meri Brown"
Notes to Self 444
21 Feb 2026 [1:11:26]
#ApostolicUnitedBrethren #AUB #Cult
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/rTFeJ-w8rEepiF9lQOeu4A

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3 weeks ago

EP12: Surviving a Polygamous Cult, Family Abuse, and Finding Purpose Through Kindness in Motion This Is Tineise’s Story In this episode of the Irene Podcast, host Hope interviews Tineise Davenport, with the nonprofit Kindness in Motion. Tineise explains she grew up in a polygamous cult environment connected to multiple fundamentalist groups (including Centennial Park, FLDS/Colorado City, and the AUB), describing secrecy, fear of government, and strict gender expectations that discouraged girls from asking questions. She recounts that in July 1993, when she was five, her mother was life-flighted to a Salt Lake City hospital after an incident Tineise was later told involved falling from a truck, a story she came to believe did not make sense. Tineise describes how her father remarried in September 1993 to Lenora (his secretary), who moved in with five children while still married to someone else, and how Tineise’s mother later returned home awake but paralyzed and unable to speak. Tineise details severe abuse in the household, including witnessing her brother being beaten unconscious, and her mother had to watch the abuse while immobilized; her mother died when Tineise was seven. As a neglected and angry child, Tineise began sneaking out and spending time with boys from Colorado City who later became known as the “Lost Boys,” running away multiple times; at 13 she reached Hurricane, was arrested for breaking into a friend’s family’s house, and was sentenced to two weeks in juvenile detention. A guardian ad litem, Angela Adams, investigated abuse concerns and helped place Tineise in her maternal grandmother’s custody at a remote polygamist-affiliated ranch in the Utah desert, where Tineise learned independence skills but later returned to her father and ran away again. Between roughly 15–18, she describes heavy drinking, smoking, living with or around Lost Boys in St. George, and feeling abandoned, while noting an uncle helped her by providing a car even though she was unlicensed. Then Tineise became pregnant and says her daughter “saved” her by prompting her to stop drinking and smoking and focus on being a mother; she later left the child’s father around the time her daughter was one due to an unhealthy relationship. Tineise also shares she learned years later that her mother had planned to tell Tineise’s father she wanted a divorce shortly before the trip in 1993. Tineise will be back to continue her story and connect it to her nonprofit. Tineise briefly describes Kindness in Motion as focused on community connection linking people in need with those who can help and “bringing back the village” motivated by her belief that spreading love and kindness helps people heal. 00:00 Welcome to the Irene Podcast + Meet Tineise (Kindness in Motion) 00:47 Growing Up in a Polygamous Cult: The Groups, Secrecy, and Control 04:13 1993: Mom’s “Accident,” Hospital Visit, and a Sudden New Wife 07:43 Mom Returns Home Paralyzed: Living Through Abuse and Silence 10:44 The Story Doesn’t Add Up: Questioning the “Fell From the Truck” Explanation 14:19 Angry Childhood & Neglect: Sneaking Out, Being Raised by Siblings 20:03 Lost Boys & Desert Nights: Disappearing to Survive 21:15 Lenora’s Yo-Yo Leaving, Dad Comes Home More and Violence Escalates 22:54 Why Running Away Worked This Time: Making It to Hurricane 23:07 Colorado City Police & Keeping Girls ‘In the Community’ 24:28 Lost Boys, Desert Nights, and a Risky Place to Hide 25:50 Arrested at 13: Breaking & Entering, Court, and Juvenile Detention 27:22 The Guardian ad Litem Who Changed Everything 28:21 New Custody, New Isolation: Life at Sanctuary Ranch 29:42 Learning Independence But Religion Ties Their Hands 32:03 Back on the Run: Anger, Alcohol, and ‘Blackout Summer’ 32:43 Found Family: Living with the Lost Boys (and an Uncle Who Helped) 38:01 Two Weeks Before 18: Pregnancy That Turned Her Life Around 40:07 Motherhood, Leaving a Bad Relationship, and Becoming Like Her Mom 43:19 Wrap-Up: Kindness in Motion + Next Episode part 2 Tineise with KINDNESS IN MOTION: https://kindnessinmotion.ngo/ Subscribe for more survivor centered education and emotional safety tools. Irenegpt.ai Website: https://irenegpt.ai/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/irenegpt.ai?igsh=MWdwNTh0eTZ0aHNpaA== TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@irenegpt.ai?_r=1&_t=ZP-91vwytSGovf Youtube: https://youtube.com/@IreneGPT?si=8An_BfZ7YKOu3BOT #manipulation #abusivebehavior #emotionalabuse #toxicrelationships #relationshipredflags #textmanipulation #gaslighting #healingjourney #traumarecovery #itsnotyou #selfworth #boundaries #awareness

"Ep12: Surviving a Polygamous #Cult, Family Abuse, & Finding Purpose Through Kindness in Motion"
Irene GPT
19 Feb 2026 [0:45:29]
#FLDS #Mormons #ApostolicUnitedBrethren #AUB
https://s.cultpodcasts.com/Ti5vfO2pj0agkSQRh380Sw

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Let's talk Polygamy & Sister Wives https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ This conversation delves into the complexities of life within the AUB, exploring personal experiences, family dynamics, and the emotional healing process. The speakers discuss the challenges of parenting, financial struggles, and the significance of covenants made during marriage ceremonies. They also reflect on societal expectations regarding reproductive choices and the public perception of polygamy, particularly in light of media portrayals. Through their insights, they emphasize the importance of healing and personal growth in navigating these intricate issues. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the complexities of relationships within polygamous communities, focusing on manipulation tactics, the struggles of leaving such communities, and the emotional weight of divorce. They reflect on cultural representations in media, particularly in 'Big Love', and discuss family dynamics, including scapegoating and the loneliness often experienced in polygamous life. The conversation also touches on the role of women and the impact of leadership within these communities. This conversation delves into the complexities of relationships, education, and beliefs within polygamous communities, particularly focusing on the AUB and LDS practices. The speakers discuss the dynamics of polygamous relationships, the importance of education, the significance of priesthood lineage, and the financial obligations tied to tithing. They also explore the sealing practices in the afterlife and the implications of custody arrangements in polygamous families, providing insights into the legal and social aspects of living in such communities. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Technical Difficulties 01:53 Understanding the AUB and Its Complexities 06:08 Personal Experiences with Family Dynamics 09:55 Healing from Trauma and Emotional Growth 14:10 Navigating Parenthood and Family Planning 18:05 The Concept of Exit Plans in Polygamous Relationships 21:50 Medical Challenges and Financial Struggles 26:08 Covenants and Promises in AUB Ceremonies 30:00 Reproductive Choices and Societal Expectations 34:13 Reflections on Polygamy and Public Perception 43:04 Manipulation Tactics in Relationships 46:56 The Struggles of Leaving a Community 49:00 Navigating Divorce and Legal Processes 51:45 The Emotional Weight of Release 54:05 Cultural Reflections in 'Big Love' 01:01:05 Family Dynamics and Scapegoating 01:07:46 The Loneliness of Polygamous Life 01:12:11 The Impact of Leadership in Polygamy 01:19:16 The Role of Women in Polygamous Families 01:25:36 Navigating Relationships in Polygamy 01:30:31 Education and Awareness in Polygamous Communities 01:34:35 Understanding Priesthood and Lineage 01:40:40 Tithing and Financial Obligations in Polygamy 01:45:54 Sealing Practices and Afterlife Beliefs 01:50:49 Custody and Family Dynamics in Polygamous Families 01:56:35 Legal and Social Implications of Polygamy Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss https://linktr.ee/thesisterwivesprofessor?fbclid=IwVERDUAP8WLZleHRuA2FlbQIxMABzcnRjBmFwcF9pZAo2NjI4NTY4Mzc5AAEeUmcKFS9E9N8rXzets3ulsXGDU-MgpQEnVpsnczSoff5-V_ioO0HyrWKFH5c_aem_xMvl89kN3_6sGBbC_Qqomg Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"Let's talk Polygamy & #SisterWives"
Notes to Self 444
13 Feb 2026 [2:07:59]
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Let's talk about Polygamy Sister Wives https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ Melanie & Cory were born & raised in a polygamist cult called the Apostolic United Brethren. Her father is the current prophet & leader of the AUB. Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"Let's talk about Polygamy #SisterWives"
Notes to Self 444
12 Feb 2026 [0:13:10]
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Sister Wives 5.4 - Polygamist Cults (W. Notes to Self 444) We're back to season 5, folks, and i'm tagging in some help.I'll be honest, I was planning on taking a break from collaborations for a bit, but then this episode was a struggle for me right away. The Brown teenagers (or a few of them) go to meet with and help Holding out Help, the organization that helps former polygamists and cult members escape and establish their new lives.Well, we all know a lot more about these things than we did when this first aired. So Melanie and Cory of Notes to Self 444 (themselves former members of the Browns' sect the AUB) were kind enough to come on and help me understand what's all going on beneath the surface here.To me it's the most enlightening podcast i've ever done, thanks to them, so I hope you enjoy.Notes to Self on Youtube.Notes to Self on TikTok.Notes to Self on Instagram.Listen to my sister podcast I'm Already Scared!Check out The Sister Wives Professor Campus Book Store (merch shop) right here!Follow TSWP on Facebook ⁠⁠⁠⁠right here and join the Facebook group!Follow TSWP on Instagram and TikTok!Intro/outro music by ⁠⁠There Will Be Fireworks⁠, used with permission. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

"#SisterWives 5.4 - Polygamist Cults (W. Notes to Self 444)"
The Sister Wives Professor
9 Feb 2026 [1:05:02]
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Sister Wives Professor Interview with Notes to self444 Summary In this episode of the Sister Wives Professor podcast, Dr. Adam engages in a heartfelt conversation with Melanie and Corey, who share their experiences growing up in a polygamous community. They discuss the emotional complexities of their upbringing, the impact of their father's leadership, and the challenges they faced when transitioning to a more public life as advocates for those with similar backgrounds. The discussion delves into the nuances of familial relationships, the struggles of navigating societal perceptions, and the importance of self-reflection and healing in their journeys. Melanie and Corey also touch on the transactional nature of relationships within their former community and how they strive to raise their children with love and understanding, free from the shame and guilt they experienced. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to the Podcast and Guests 02:47 Growing Up in a Polygamous Cult 09:35 The Impact of Leadership Changes 16:05 Navigating Family Dynamics and Public Perception 23:17 Reflections on Love and Parenting in Polygamy 28:04 Transactional Relationships in Polygamy 37:09 The Impact of Estrangement on Daily Life 37:38 Parenting Beyond Shame and Guilt 41:57 The Reality Behind the Sister Wives Show 49:01 Navigating Public Perception and Personal Truths Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives Professor Interview with Notes to Self444"
Notes to Self 444
8 Feb 2026 [1:01:23]
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Sister Wives Season 20 Finale: Reflecting on the Past Holding Out HELP Gala: https://holdingouthelp.networkforgood.com/events/95798-2026-igniting-hope-gala Check out Gardens of Evil: Inside the Zion Society Cult, premiering February 3. Based on Mike King's book, Deceived, a story of coercive control, abuse, and cult influence. Proceeds support children’s advocacy and criminal justice scholarships. Find it here or on your preferred platform: https://go.gamutpodcasts.com/americannightmareseries In the Season 20 Tell-All Finale of Sister Wives, we take a step back and reflect on the past, the beliefs that shaped the family, and how everything has led to this moment. This episode revisits the foundations of plural marriage, the idea of “enduring to the end,” and the paths that brought the Browns together in the first place. With apologies seemingly off the table and everyone saying they’re ready to move on, this finale feels like a closing chapter. We break down what was revealed, what was left unsaid, and why Season 20 feels less like a pause—and more like an ending. What do you think… is there really more story left to tell, or did this finale quietly wrap it all up? If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy New website is now up! www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com ✅SUBSCRIBE NOW : https://shorturl.at/inqrE ➡️ Checkout our other Videos: 🔷Ex-Polygamist Reacts to Sister Wives: Season 18 Ep. 1-2 ✅https://youtu.be/R9u4wAzUjK0 🔷Exclusive Interview with an Insider: Exposing FLDS Secrets ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIjlLejkETU 🔷Breaking Free: One Girl's Journey from Warren Jeffs' Control ✅ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-bH4fLMZX0 🔷Behind FLDS Doors: The Tragic Tale of a Family Torn Apart by Warren Jeffs ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFFQ_j_RJCo 🔷Tour Of The Dream Center, A Refuge Home For Ex-Polygamous Families ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbqR1UJFJBY #like #comment #post #share and #encourage other to #subscribe to the channel.

"#SisterWives Season 20 Finale: Reflecting on the Past"
Growing Up in Polygamy
4 Feb 2026 [0:44:10]
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Sister Wives S 20 E 19 Tell All Pt 4 TikTok Watch along Thhttps://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ Cory & Melanie were born and raised in the polygamist group Apostolic United Brethren. They give their thoughts on the latest episode of the TLC show Sister Wives. Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives S 20 E 19 tell all Pt 4 TikTok Watch Along"
Notes to Self 444
4 Feb 2026 [0:26:44]
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Mykelti & Tony Interview Melanie & Cory https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ https://www.patreon.com/u85780932?utm_campaign=creatorshare_fan https://youtu.be/YZu-t-9mPsE?si=47iAma9WAnjp3zpd In this engaging conversation, Melanie and Cory discuss their unique experiences growing up in polygamous families with guests Tony and Mykelti. They explore the complexities of family dynamics, friendships, and the emotional challenges faced in a polygamous setting. The discussion also touches on cultural differences, the impact of moving away from Utah, and the importance of emotional intelligence in parenting. The guests share their insights on navigating relationships and the significance of understanding family lineage in a polygamous context. Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Tony & Mykeltis Patreon link https://www.patreon.com/u85780932?utm_campaign=creatorshare_fan Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20 Keywords polygamy, family dynamics, emotional intelligence, parenting, cultural differences, friendships, AUB, Apostolic United Brethren, family lineage, personal experiences, Mykelti brown, Tony Padron

"Mykelti & Tony Interview Melanie & Cory"
Notes to Self 444
31 Jan 2026 [1:00:12]
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Mykelti & Tony: Growing Up Polygamist & the Real Sister Wives S20 Tea Mykelti & Tony's Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/u85780932 In this episode, we sit down with Mykelti Brown Padron, daughter of Kody and Christine Brown, and her husband Tony for an open and honest conversation about growing up in polygamy. Mykelti shares what it was really like being raised in a plural family, how that upbringing shaped her views on relationships, and how it affected her and Tony while they were dating. Together, they reflect on what they believe about polygamy today and ask the big question—can polygamy ever truly be successful? We also dive into Sister Wives Season 20, asking the questions fans really want answered. Mykelti gives her perspective on the family dynamics, the changes we’re seeing on screen, and what could be coming next. This conversation is thoughtful, honest, and full of insight—straight from someone who lived it. If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy New website is now up! www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com ✅SUBSCRIBE NOW : https://shorturl.at/inqrE ➡️ Checkout our other Videos: 🔷Ex-Polygamist Reacts to Sister Wives: Season 18 Ep. 1-2 ✅https://youtu.be/R9u4wAzUjK0 🔷Exclusive Interview with an Insider: Exposing FLDS Secrets ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIjlLejkETU 🔷Breaking Free: One Girl's Journey from Warren Jeffs' Control ✅ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-bH4fLMZX0 🔷Behind FLDS Doors: The Tragic Tale of a Family Torn Apart by Warren Jeffs ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFFQ_j_RJCo 🔷Tour Of The Dream Center, A Refuge Home For Ex-Polygamous Families ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbqR1UJFJBY #like #comment #post #share and #encourage other to #subscribe to the channel.

"Mykelti & Tony: Growing up Polygamist & the Real #SisterWives S20 Tea"
Growing Up in Polygamy
28 Jan 2026 [1:00:16]
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Sister Wives Season 20 Ep 18 Tell All Pt 3 Recap https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this conversation, Melanie and Cory delve into their experiences growing up in a polygamous community, exploring the trauma and abuse that often goes unrecognized until later in life. They discuss the illusion of choice in relationships, the complexities of emotional intimacy, and the importance of setting boundaries for healing. The conversation also touches on the cultural expectations and shame surrounding polygamous marriages, the dynamics between sister wives, and the manipulative behaviors exhibited by patriarchal figures. Ultimately, they emphasize the need for self-empowerment and the recognition of trauma as a crucial step in the healing process. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the complexities of relationships within a polygamous context, exploring themes of emotional turmoil, competition among sister wives, indoctrination, and the dynamics of ego and dominance. They discuss the transactional nature of love and the struggle for validation, as well as the challenges of forgiveness and healing. The conversation highlights the superiority complex often present in polygamous structures and the ongoing journey of breaking free from control and dominance. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Polygamy and Personal Background 03:00 Processing Trauma and Abuse in Polygamy 05:58 Illusion of Choice and Control in Relationships 08:45 Healing and Boundaries in Polygamous Dynamics 11:49 The Role of Patriarchy and Ownership in Relationships 15:00 Apologies and Manipulation in Polygamous Relationships 17:59 Emotional Complexity and the Struggles of Sister Wives 20:47 The Illusion of Sisterhood and Realities of Conflict 24:06 The Impact of Early Marriages and Lack of Compatibility 27:04 Navigating Emotional Turmoil and Expectations 30:10 The Role of Priesthood and Responsibility in Family Dynamics 33:12 Conclusion and Reflections on Healing and Growth 38:04 The Complexities of Choice in Plural Marriage 41:55 Navigating Shame and Control in Relationships 49:47 The Illusion of Emotional Intimacy 57:39 The Impact of Indoctrination on Relationships 01:05:03 Ego and Competition Among Sister Wives 01:16:01 Comparisons and Competition in Relationships 01:19:48 Ego, Pride, and Righteous Dominion 01:25:07 Transactional Dynamics in Polygamous Marriages 01:29:32 Surrogacy and Underlying Tensions 01:35:51 Cody's Apologies and Misunderstandings 01:41:59 Boundaries and Personal Growth 01:47:51 Superiority Complex in Polygamous Dynamics Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives Season 20 Ep 18 tell all Pt 3 Recap"
Notes to Self 444
27 Jan 2026 [1:54:28]
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Sister Wives Season 20 Ep 18 Tell All Pt 3 Live Reaction from TikTok Cory & Melanie were born and raised in the polygamist group Apostolic United Brethern. They give their thoughts on the latest episode of the TLC show Sister Wives. Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives Season 20 Ep 18 tell all Pt 3 Live Reaction from TikTok"
Notes to Self 444
26 Jan 2026 [0:26:03]
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Sister Wives, Polygamy & More Live discussion https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this surprise live session, the hosts engage with their audience on various topics, including weather conditions affecting their community, discussions on fairness in relationships, and the role of government assistance within the AUB community. They share personal childhood memories and family dynamics, explore political engagement and religious beliefs, and discuss the importance of community support for individuals with disabilities. The conversation highlights the cultural practices and social structures within the AUB, emphasizing kindness and acceptance. In this conversation, the speakers reflect on their upbringing in a farming community, the challenges faced when leaving polygamy, and the importance of community support and charity. They discuss family relationships, personal growth, and the desire for self-sufficiency within their community. The conversation also touches on religious beliefs regarding the end times and the dynamics of healing and forgiveness within family structures. The conversation delves into the themes of family generosity, community dynamics, and personal experiences within the AUB. It highlights the importance of education, financial literacy, and the challenges faced by women in polygamous relationships. The speakers reflect on their upbringing, interactions with law enforcement, and the impact of their mother's generosity on their family. They also discuss the cultural norms surrounding birth control and relationships, emphasizing the need for empowerment and understanding of legal rights. Chapters 00:00 Surprise Live Session Introduction 06:10 Discussion on Fairness and Equality in Relationships 12:02 Childhood Memories and Family Dynamics 18:01 Religious Texts and Beliefs in AUB 24:03 Community and Social Structure in AUB 30:13 Mom's Perspective and Community Support 36:02 Discussions on Disability and Acceptance 40:02 Growing Up in a Farming Community 44:24 Leaving Polygamy: Challenges and Education 49:47 Community Support and Backlash 55:20 Self-Sufficiency and Community Goals 01:01:44 Religious Beliefs and the End Times 01:07:07 Personal Growth and Family Dynamics 01:19:54 Family Generosity and Community Support 01:22:09 Interactions with Law Enforcement 01:24:00 Community Reputation and Relationships 01:25:27 Education and Opportunities for Younger Generations 01:26:48 The Importance of Writing and Sharing Stories 01:28:54 Mom's Generosity and Business Challenges 01:29:56 Understanding Priesthood in the AUB 01:30:56 Financial Literacy and Empowerment 01:32:19 Breaking Barriers and Setting Precedents 01:34:11 Home Equity Lines of Credit Explained 01:36:33 Personal Experiences with Polygamy 01:37:56 Navigating Relationships and Family Dynamics 01:39:22 Birth Control and Family Planning in the AUB 01:41:51 Community Dynamics and Morality 01:43:42 Cultural Norms and Personal Choices 01:45:42 Financial Independence and Legal Rights 01:47:13 Perceptions of Beauty and Relationships 01:49:37 Community Support and Inspiration 01:51:03 Wrapping Up and Future Aspirations Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20 https://dialherbs.com/product/own-your-own-body/ https://youtu.be/LlTayNKUTns?si=DjKz1VSIjRPaHaDi

"#SisterWives, Polygamy & more Live Discussion"
Notes to Self 444
24 Jan 2026 [1:58:14]
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Sister Wives season 20 Ep 17 Tell All Pt 2 Recap https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ Summary In this conversation, Melanie and Corey reflect on their experiences growing up in a polygamous family while discussing the show Sister Wives. They explore themes of healing, accountability, and the complexities of relationships within polygamy. The discussion delves into financial negotiations, property disputes, and the emotional manipulation that often occurs in these dynamics. The conversation highlights the challenges faced by women in polygamous relationships and concludes with reflections on the future implications of these family structures. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the complexities of relationships within a polygamous family, focusing on themes of trust, betrayal, and the dynamics of sacrifice. They discuss the illusion of promises made by Cody, the self-righteousness of Robin, and the lessons learned by the other wives as they navigate their relationships. The conversation highlights the manipulation and hierarchy present in polygamous structures, as well as the emotional toll it takes on the individuals involved. Ultimately, the speakers emphasize the importance of self-awareness and the need for honest communication in relationships. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Polygamous Background 02:47 Reflections on Sister Wives and Personal Healing 05:55 The Dynamics of Polygamous Relationships 08:47 Moral Compasses and Accountability 12:01 Financial Negotiations and Property Ownership 14:49 Coyote Pass and Family Dynamics 18:09 The Concept of Leverage in Relationships 21:00 The Role of NDAs and Power Plays 23:47 Mary's Stand and the Importance of Fairness 26:58 Cody's Justifications and Family Dynamics 30:14 The Kingdom of God and Family Structure 33:05 Mary's Separation of Transactions 35:53 Janelle's Negotiations and Best Interests 38:51 Backstabbing or Problem Solving? 42:11 Cody's Manipulations and Accountability 43:37 Legal Maneuvering and Trust Issues 49:08 Financial Disputes and Equity Concerns 55:36 The Dynamics of Loyalty and Betrayal 01:01:43 Manipulation and Miscommunication in Polygamy 01:07:56 Self-Righteousness and Accountability 01:12:43 The Illusion of Morality and Legal Obligations 01:26:51 Trust Issues and Financial Dynamics 01:29:40 Cody's Apology Tour and Enlightenment 01:32:55 Manipulation and Mind Games in Relationships 01:36:14 Hierarchy and Communication in Polygamy 01:41:01 Disrespect and Ownership in Relationships 01:46:53 The Role of Women in Apologies and Healing 01:52:27 Cody's Perception of Enlightenment and Control 02:01:12 Christine's Journey to Self-Worth and Healing Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives Season 20 Ep 17 tell all Pt 2 Recap"
Notes to Self 444
22 Jan 2026 [2:09:41]
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Fact or Feelings? Coyote Pass Contracts & Kody Saying He “Did Love” Christine | S20 Tell-All Pt. 1&2 In this video, we react to Sister Wives Season 20 Tell-All Part 1 and break down two of the biggest moments from the episode. We talk about the sale of Coyote Pass and how each person involved seems to remember the contracts and agreements very differently. The conflicting stories raise real questions about communication, accountability, and what actually happened behind the scenes. We also discuss the uncomfortable moment when Kody says he “did love” Christine, and why that statement didn’t sit well with Christine or David. Is that about lingering feelings, or is it simply a statement of past fact? We share our perspective on why wording matters — especially after everything that’s happened. Let us know what you think: Do you believe the Coyote Pass stories add up, and was Kody’s comment about loving Christine harmless or inappropriate? If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy New website is now up! www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com ✅SUBSCRIBE NOW : https://shorturl.at/inqrE ➡️ Checkout our other Videos: 🔷Ex-Polygamist Reacts to Sister Wives: Season 18 Ep. 1-2 ✅https://youtu.be/R9u4wAzUjK0 🔷Exclusive Interview with an Insider: Exposing FLDS Secrets ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIjlLejkETU 🔷Breaking Free: One Girl's Journey from Warren Jeffs' Control ✅ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-bH4fLMZX0 🔷Behind FLDS Doors: The Tragic Tale of a Family Torn Apart by Warren Jeffs ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFFQ_j_RJCo 🔷Tour Of The Dream Center, A Refuge Home For Ex-Polygamous Families ✅https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbqR1UJFJBY #like #comment #post #share and #encourage other to #subscribe to the channel.

"Fact or Feelings? Coyote Pass Contracts & Kody Saying He 'Did Love' Christine | S20 tell-All Pt. 1&2"
Growing Up in Polygamy
21 Jan 2026 [0:40:20]
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1 month ago

Sister Wives Season 20 Ep 17 Tell All Pt 2 TikTok Live Reaction Cory & Melanie were born and raised in the polygamist group Apostolic United Brethern. They give their thoughts on the latest episode of the TLC show Sister Wives. Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives Season 20 Ep 17 tell all Pt 2 TikTok Live Reaction"
Notes to Self 444
20 Jan 2026 [0:27:22]
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1 month ago

Sister Wives Season 20 Ep 16 Tell All Pt 1 Recap https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this episode of "Notes to Self 444," Melanie and Corey dive deep into the complexities of polygamous relationships, particularly focusing on the dynamics within the Brown family from the reality show "Sister Wives." They share their personal experiences growing up in a polygamous cult, highlighting the emotional and psychological challenges faced by women in such environments. The hosts discuss the recent tell-all episode, critiquing the behaviors of Cody and Robin while emphasizing the importance of healing from trauma. They also touch on the manipulative tactics often employed in polygamous families, where trust is scarce and emotional isolation is prevalent. Throughout the conversation, they encourage listeners to engage in their healing journeys and reflect on the impact of their upbringing on their current lives. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Background 01:51 The Importance of Healing 03:15 Frustrations with the Show 10:17 Manipulation and Control Dynamics 20:42 The Reality of Sisterhood in Polygamy 30:05 Concluding Thoughts on Relationships 43:43 The Role of Victimhood in Family Dynamics 44:57 Financial Maneuvering and Power Plays 47:49 Manipulation and Trust Issues 49:16 Personal Growth and Healing 53:40 Coyote Pass: A Symbol of Control 01:00:39 The Business of Family: Transactions and Trust 01:07:55 Setting Precedents: Legal and Emotional Battles 01:24:43 Conclusion and Future Discussions Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

"#SisterWives Season 20 Ep 16 tell all Pt 1 Recap"
Notes to Self 444
20 Jan 2026 [1:21:31]
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1 month ago

Sister Wives, HELOC loans, Funerals & more for our Live Chat In this lively YouTube live session, Melanie and Corey from Notes To Self engage with their audience, discussing the complexities of polygamous relationships, particularly focusing on the dynamics within Cody Brown's family from the reality show 'Sister Wives.' They share their frustrations about the ongoing drama, including legal issues surrounding property and finances, and the emotional toll it takes on the wives involved. The hosts also touch on the concept of 'pligonometry,' a term they coined to describe the financial manipulations and emotional games played within polygamous structures. They emphasize the importance of understanding these dynamics, especially as they relate to the legal and emotional well-being of the women in these relationships. In this segment of the conversation, the speakers delve into personal experiences surrounding family dynamics, particularly focusing on the complexities of relationships within the AUB (Apostolic United Brethren) community. They discuss the passing of loved ones, the significance of funerals, and the emotional weight of familial expectations. One speaker reflects on their father's attempts to make amends before his death, highlighting the nuances of forgiveness and community acceptance. The conversation shifts to the topic of sister wives and the covenants they share, exploring the religious implications and personal experiences tied to these relationships. The speakers also touch on the nostalgia for community events like dances, juxtaposed with the toxic elements of their upbringing, revealing a longing for connection despite the challenges they faced. In this segment of the conversation, the speakers delve into their personal spiritual practices and the evolution of their beliefs over time. They discuss the importance of meditation, reading empowering literature, and adapting childhood spiritual teachings to fit their current lives. The speakers emphasize the significance of having supportive partners and the role of boundaries in maintaining personal peace. They also reflect on the healing journeys of women in their community, noting how each individual approaches their healing differently, and express pride in their progress. The conversation touches on the complexities of familial relationships, particularly in the context of leaving a high-demand religion, and the challenges of reconciling past beliefs with present realities. The speakers share insights on personal growth, the importance of self-compassion, and the ongoing journey of unlearning harmful teachings from their upbringing. In this episode, the hosts delve into the complexities of growing up in a military family and the educational opportunities that arise from it. They reflect on their own experiences, particularly how the benefits of military service were not fully understood by the older siblings, who often had to finance their own education. The conversation shifts to personal anecdotes about family dynamics, including the recent passing of a family member and the implications of such events within their community. The hosts also discuss the nuances of polygamous family structures, touching on the expectations and rules that govern their lives, particularly in relation to priesthood and leadership roles within their community. They share insights into the challenges faced by individuals navigating these complex relationships and the often contradictory teachings of their faith. 00:00 Introduction and Live Session Kickoff 06:27 Legal Issues and Financial Manipulations 12:27 Understanding Pligonometry in Polygamy 20:39 Cody's Financial Strategies and Their Implications 30:31 The Emotional Toll on the Wives 37:29 Wrap-Up and Audience Engagement 43:27 Family Dynamics and Apologies 01:02:03 Nostalgia for Community and Dances 01:10:06 Reflections on Personal Growth and Healing 01:25:23 Daily Spiritual Practices and Meditation 01:31:32 Self-Compassion and Learning from Experiences 01:46:26 The Journey of Unlearning and Personal Growth 02:06:33 The Benefits of Military Families 02:12:12 Navigating Polygamous Family Dynamics 02:24:23 Understanding AUB Leadership and Priesthood 02:40:09 The Contradictions of AUB Teachings Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season20

"#SisterWives, Heloc Loans, Funerals & more for our Live Chat"
Notes to Self 444
17 Jan 2026 [2:47:33]
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2 months ago

Polygamy, Sister Wives, and Stigma with Notes to Self 444 Welcome to Plathville will be back next week, but I had the chance to talk to Melanie and Cory of Notes to Self 444 about any number of things, including their first-hand experiences with the AUB - the same cult that brought us the Brown family. We talk all about that and a lot more, so I hope you enjoy.Notes to Self on Youtube.Notes to Self on TikTok.Notes to Self on Instagram.Enjoy this podcast early and ad-free, along with monthly bonus podcasts ⁠⁠⁠⁠on Patreon or the Faculty Lounge on Apple Podcasts!Listen to my sister podcast I'm Already Scared!Check out The Sister Wives Professor Campus Book Store (merch shop) right here!Follow TSWP on Facebook ⁠⁠⁠⁠right here and join the Facebook group!Follow TSWP on Instagram and TikTok!Intro/outro music by ⁠⁠There Will Be Fireworks⁠, used with permission. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

"Polygamy, #SisterWives, & Stigma with Notes to Self 444"
The Sister Wives Professor
14 Jan 2026 [1:01:22]
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