when ur anxious, do you become chatty or silent?
It depends a little bit. Sometimes, I want to talk to someone, because it makes me feel not alone when I have some panic attacks. Signs of this would be me reaching out randomly, being apologetic about reaching out, IE: "Sorry for the random DM", or "Sorry for messaging so late", or "sorry for (insert just about anything here)". If I send you a message with something like this in it, it's usually because I'm trying to find someone to talk to, because my anxiety is making me feel super alone. Transversely, I can completely disappear for days on end. Sometimes when I have severe panic and anxiety attacks (the two are different), it can lead to me withdrawing, and not even being aware that I'm doing it. It's because I go in to kind of a self-preservation mode. Basically I become too aware of my heartbeat, and my breathing. These are things that are meant to be done subconsciously. My brain tricks me into thinking about it to where I become painfully aware to the point that I have to breathe manually. When this happens, it can be very exhausting. I can last in this state for an hour, and as long as 6 hours sometimes. When it ends, I'm usually mentally and physically exhausted, and might sleep for exceptional amounts of time, instead of my usual inability to sleep that normally persists. People think I disappear on them on purpose, but I always apologize and explain as best I can. It's so impossible to grasp what it's like unless you've felt it. I've had friends that I've disappeared on, explained this all to them, and they then decided to punish me by randomly ignoring me for long periods of time. Over time, this has made my condition worse. So, in recognizing what people have seemingly held my mental health issues against me in this way, I would then cut those people out of my life completely without a word. There's no value in repeating toxic cycles. If I stick around in your life, it's a sign I value you great || limit
Conversation about anxiety: A peek into what happens within my brain sometimes. TW: Anxiety, mental health. It tells you a lot about me though, if you are interested to learn.
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